in memory of L.S.

From a live oak, a feeder swings
in a gust of wind I can barely hear
as I reread your postcard of Ayrshires
shiny & staid as showroom cars.

In a Minnesota city clinic
you traced these perfect smoky letters
sung an octave higher than the words
chemo, just three big nasty ones.

We all believed, if anyone,
you’d beat the body’s rudeness
the way you strafed each high-jinks
high-school jock with your long best lines.

These always made me want to run home
and write beyond my envy any word
too good for ink. Now there’s nothing
to outdo but an ache that grows like algae.

Lynda, did the broken fist of your lung
go limp, your breath quit, the windows silver?
I don’t want to remember you
any other way but in that blue

secondhand dress with the low neckline
I always wanted to touch, there, on the breastbone
to know how it felt to tread so lightly,
resilient after years on a Wisconsin dairy

with an army of ash-blond sisters.
You said you loved them because they were there
and you here in the damp gulf plains
where I turn my attention to the wind