No good reflecting on what might have been
if I’d been different —no straying
after foreign flowers, no hunger
for bitter fruit. In the beginning—

such a child —I thought it punishment,
not fate. It is daylight I miss
mainly. What we are granted of sun here
is a dim relentless red. I wander

the reeking river, I pat
fat Cerberus on his many manic heads.
The moldy skiff makes its incessant
prompt arrivals, so efficient,

our dutiful Charon growling orders
from the prow. Huge-eyed, uncomprehending,
the new recruits stare round. Wives still
clutching their washing, wailing children,

soldiers bloodstained and battered
from the latest engagement.
Then that blessed briny sip, welcome
oblivion —they’re blank as babies.