It surprises me how quickly I can conjure
You before me, more familiar to myself
Than my own mirrored face. You sit
At home on your Thursday evenings.

It is your devastating composure I covet.
You must teach me how to attain that
Inured expression. No. Not the posture
Of your face the moment after he taunts you,

But just before. The look you keep
Poised upon your lips and arched brow.
The way you withdraw from what borders
You, your slightly squinted eyes

Waiting for a secluded moment
To blink. Can you see what I admire
—stilted and vague—returning
And returning behind the locked doors,

Companied by the tiresome artifacts?
How did you shed your animation
And perfect this old-world decorum while
Sitting in the garden, waiting to be scorched?