1975 and 1985

1.
Lost souls in Chekhov watch the fireflies emerge
from the woods, haltingly, and mope: "One day we'll know
the reason we have lived and why we have worked
and soon winter will come to cover us with snow"—

in our case, we prayed for summer, for the accomplishment
of its round tones. When it came, we scavenged the green
world for alternate selves, frantic as aesthetes
from the fin de siécle on a querulous tour of the continent.

The Tempest saved us. One midsummer night,
a spritely poly-accented troupe arrived
at Edith Wharton's "Mount": white, Palladian,
but her own design, down to the last brocaded

bolster, complete, and abandoned when her husband's mind
shattered . In the shuttered windows, lights
came on . Below the sloping lawn, released
spirits poised to spring from the webbed trees.

Now our lives could begin! At the porch railing,
whole in a flick of hissing light, a young sailor
leaned to wrestle an invisible wheel. Voices
blinked from the pines. Present, restored, we rejoiced
to find ourselves marooned in their company, lost,
where being there together could be enough at last.

2.
Today. ten years later, more or less
the same, we've returned . It's winter in Lenox, Mass.

We circle her flaking house, rehearsing our bleak
themes (the life or the work, marriage or betrayal).
The brilliant crust breaks beneath our feet.
Distraught calligraphy! Snow lies in draped

folds on the paired stairways falling like the arms
of Undine, alas, dropped to her sides in petulant
exasperation. Poor thing, she's exhausted. Her charmed
innocence is all in the mind of her husband, the poet

manqué. What's to be done? A crow veers
overhead, a scratch of sound across the scene.
No company. What's here but our wish to be here
completely, compose the music for a new season,

to weave a new life for Edith Wharton and the slanting
ghost in the dark hallway, the mad husband?