I knew the length of an average penis
   was five to seven inches, a fact
I learned upstairs in the stacks marked 610
   or HQ, not down in the basement
where I knelt inside a toilet stall, waiting
   for eight and a half inches or more
to fill my mouth with a deeper truth. The heart
   grows smaller, like a cut rose drying
in the sun. I was only fourteen back then,
   with four and three quarters inches
at full erection. I began equating
   Asian with inadequate, unable
to compete with others in the locker room
   after an icy swim (a shrivelled
bud between my fingers as I tried to shake