White, white
you are white everywhere
on your rubbery boy’s body
baby fat intact.

Three white years
with your thick back
turned to a wall
and your round ass
covered by jockey shorts.
(Too big to be yours.
A gift from my father?)
Why you are antiseptic,
protected from thighs to waist.
Your twig thing
sleeps in your lap,
a small white secret.

Idiot. How could you marry me?