for Bob Stein

We were driving north, through the snow, you said
you’d turned 21 during Vietnam, you were
1-A. The road curved
and curved back, the branches laden, you
said you’d decided not to go
to Canada. Which meant you’d decided to
go to jail, a slender guy of
21, which meant you’d decided to be
raped rather than to kill, if it was their
life or your ass, it was your ass.
We drove in silence, such soft snow
so heavy borne-down. That was how I’d come to
know I loved America—
when the men had to leave, they could never come back,
I looked and loved every American
needle on every American tree,
my soul was in it. But if I were taken and
used, taken and used, I think