Annals of the Holy Inquisition
For Bernard Delicieux, 1261–1320

1.
Before they stripped me
they dressed me like a doll
in the sanbenito, a burlap sack
fancifully adorned with the image
of the fire, if that can be rendered
in madder-dyed thread, and the corazo,
a huge dunce cap that made me stoop
at the threshold of the narrow door.
I learned these terms when children pointed.
Also I wore the yellow cross, my father’s name,
this body, evidence of my crime
which I confess freely—
I saw God’s will in the bolt drawn shut.

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Such a tall wheel, on oiled hinges,
so many accessories, each a matching lampblack.
Rope, hook, brake—such a flourish
to wheel it out (how else),
then the introductory questions:
is God’s mercy conditional or absolute,
immediate or slow,
lightning or steady rain?

I swear they recorded their questions
in a great gilt-bound book,
but when I answered as best I could,
confined to yes and no,
their minds wandered,
the skittering nib fell silent,
so when I trailed off
there was a sudden deep hush,
they shook themselves (dogs emerging from a lake)
and prepared me as if I were a bride
being plucked and hennaed.

They broke me—
what else could the wheel do?—
and recorded it
as if there could have been an alternative.

A cricket sang in that vault.

I prayed to the neutral angels
who side neither with God nor with Satan
and a thrush called faintly, unused to being heard
by someone who was not I.

Then the silence was profound
and you could hear the scritch of the nib
copying the questions
from scroll to immense scroll.